Thursday, 20 August 2015

Hi. I know it has been ages since this place is updated, but I will be doing a post today... here we go.... 
Hello the future me! You just turned 18 4 days ago as you are writting this letter. As you are 18, you have never shed tears for guys and bgr, but tons for the name of kinship and a little for the name of friendship. But currently, most of your tears goes to the regret you feel, the stress you feel, to the unknown possibilities, and to the blur future that you are seeing now. 
You are 18, however you have regretted the mistakes that you did on the year you turned 17. You made the mistake for not fighting for what you wanted. You made the mistake for continuing what you have always been struggling to make it a success. You were already drowning at that point of time, but you still struggled on in the waters, as you didn't give up to the lifeboat next to you. And today, as you read this, you might still be regretting all of these or maybe, regretting for not working hard enough in your last year to make a change to your life. Or maybe, you are thankful for your choice that you once regretted and feel that it is a blessing in disguise for not pursuing what was your interest at that point of time. The 18-year-old you is still at a state of confusion. She is at the brink of giving up everything and feel that everything is a waste of her time. 
However, things like a new update to the current favourite story in asianfanfics, a new update to your favourite korean drama in english subs, a new comeback for your favourite korean girlgroup, or maybe seeing your baby niece, and having fun with your friends and family cheers you up and are the daily vitamins that you need. Things might change when you are older. You no longer is a fangirl, you no longer are addicted to the thing called fan fiction. You no longer chase after kdramas so tiringly. But remember, you were once the girl that is so simple. 
The 18-year-old you puts a lot of trust in friendship and treats friends like no other and cherishes every family moments, laughing with her mom at every other nonsensical things and doing stupid things for her just to see her laugh/smile. Please remember all of these and continue what you have been doing in the past because this is what you enjoy and you live for. 
As the 18-year-old you is typing this letter, it is currently 10 minutes to 3 am and you have a paper in the morning at 8 am. This shows how much she has given up. She has changed over the span of 2 years, but not her definition of success no matter what people say.  
So please, in future, if you see somebody struggling as much as you did in the past, please do not hesitate to lend a helping hand, and support your kid to do whatever he/she wants regardless the voices from others that he/she hears. All because you know how hard it was not doing things that you dislike and how hard it was regretting over the decisions that you have made. 
The 18-year-old you. 

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